Aliens
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Meet me at the coastline
Take my reservations on holiday
Don’t forget the lotion
Dear i’m looking ghostly and it’s only may
Summer tears and sandalwood
Loved you in the way I could
Loved you in the way I could
Sorry that it wasn’t good for you
You were pressed for more time
Never understood i was standing there
Interactive aliens
Born and raised on different displays of care
Summer tears and sandalwood
Loved you in the way I could
I don’t think i’m any good
I don’t think i’m any good for you
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Baking in the heat of a teen sun
Summers’ gonna bleed me dry if I
leave this street let the colors run
I don’t need a shoulder,
I just wanna peek at what’s to come
Caught it in my throat and i could breathe for once
I’ll depart when the park is overrun
Bad faith in your good graces
Green grass seems miles away
and yet you take up all the public places
Sparrow up ahead like a sinew
Fighting from a hunters bite in
the wide set eyes it was born to
I don’t need a shock to the system,
I just wanna clear clear view
Caught it in my throat that i don’t need you
i’ll depart when the park is overrun
open heart baby i’m not here for fun
How hollow, only i could know
. . .
You’re wearing off, you’re wearing off on me
You’re wearing off, on and off on me
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I don’t wanna give you all of me all of me
Sipping cola at the bar
Feed your sugar loaded greed for a part of me
Evolution of a scar
Pedestal to stand or fall from
Never step in one direction
Terrified to speak my mind
for fear I'll crumble
Hard time remembering dreams
you say i’m what you’ve been needing
Cannon ball to ease my ego
I’m not here to dive
I don’t wanna fill the soda cup any more
Tuck you in or pick a fight
You can walk me down the block to the corner store
Just don’t hold me to the light
Pedestal to stand or fall from
Never step in one direction
Terrified to speak my mind
for fear I'll crumble
fear i’ll crumble
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sips her gin and tonic in panic as if it’s the
last she’ll taste of juniper forevermore
spying on neighbors across the way
as daylight wanes from the penthouse floor
alone in the city
is never alone really
And Things
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In a short lived stolen moment
between coming from and going
On the island of Manhattan
where the strangest things can happen
You’ll be sitting sipping coffee looking pretty as always
And the sight of you will stop me in my tracks
Oh Samantha, I had plans but
Never knew that needed saying
Oh Samantha, I wrote anthems
Just to drown the sound of waiting
Well I’ll ask about your work and you’ll ask me how my tours been
And we’ll toss those softball questions for a while
But too many years divided can only lead to forced politeness
Check your watch and leave me with a smile
Oh Samantha, I had plans but
Never knew that needed saying
Oh Samantha, I wrote anthems
Just to drown the sound
No need to be forthright
Seem you had a nice life, and I did too
But in the back of my mind
In another timeline
I had a better one with you
Samantha, I had plans but
Never knew that needed saying
Oh Samantha, I wrote anthems
Just to drown the sound
Just to drown the sound
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We stand at South Station,
crossed arms and forced conversation
Neither wanting to claim blame for some
altercation I can’t reclaim, but we talk
Yeah we talk, yeah we talk
Cause a bitter fairwell’s bad luck
We argue with crimson violet
Hot stares and cold powered silence
I guess that’s our way, you and me
Tender hearts, temper fits,
And that’s the way it’ll be
Unless we try and change it
But I hate, yeah I hate
How it makes me still feel like a kid
. . . .
At the station I think of Scarlett
An old friend from the farmers market, she’s
encyclopedic on greenery and seedlings and
Likes lots of people but keeps to herself after
Spending the year by a hospital bed and now
Scarlett has no one to argue with
Scarlett has no one to argue with
Scarlett has no one to argue with so I
Start to lose taste for our arguments,
Knowing Scarlett has no one to argue with
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Just a small child with green eyes
And a complicated love for the spotlight
Only wanting it if you look just right
And never thinking you do
Used to sing out in grade school
Till the other graders made you feel uncool
Wasn’t very faithful to the golden rule
It doesn’t matter either way now
Count your cost, quit your dreaming
Now that Alexandra’s screaming
She saw it from so far off and still
Somehow you’re lost and beaten down
Where’d you find that scathing silence
Addiction to a fiction of self-reliance
Saying “you can’t make it till then”
Will you ever write a wishlist in ballpoint pen?
Say you’re wounded when the truth is
That’s a bead along a string of excuses
You meet her in the bathroom each time
The villain and the victim on either side
Count your cost, quit your dreaming
Now that Alexandra’s screaming
She saw it from so far off and still
Somehow you’re lost and beaten down
Alexandra’s screaming now
Fracture’s in the steps peak out
To keep you from your temple
When will it get simple
Tell me it gets simple
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Dust on the steeple, warry-eyed people
Filling the streets with dreams and mistakes
City life leaves you wearied and green too
Nobody needs you but everyone takes
Day in, day out
Signs say “stay in,” “stay out”
John and Cece make it look easy
Bread in the morning and songs in the evening
Up in the hills where the air gets lighter
And the sounds of the freeway taste
Like the waves they catch on weekends
I keep their home fit while they’re away
watering their children
Finding magic hidden everyday
in love notes they’ve written
Soon they’ll head back west for summer
I’ll be gone by their return, hanging daisies on
Whatever door I next call mine
A lesson learned in taking time
John and Cece make it look easy
Pack in the wagon and drive to the beach and
Out where the sea sways to meet the horizon
The same glisten they find in each other's eyes and think isn’t this something
Isn’t this paradise
All we need’s this sunset and guitar
The height of luxury is sitting where we are
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New York, you’re bad to me
You spend my money and my energy
Change my plans without apology
When nothing’s running express
New York, you don’t treat me right
Cars and sirens keep me up each night
And your diamond studded pavement’s a trick of the light
Ooh, you put my love to the test
I’m tied up like a pretzel
Trying to be what I’m not
You should make me feel special
But I’m just a drop in your pot
Someday I’ll settle down
With some sweeter, cleaner, greener town
And I won’t mind having all that space around
But you’ll be hard to forget
I’m tied up like a pretzel
Trying to be what I’m not
You should make me feel special
But these sorry-starry eyes are on every city block
Someday I’ll settle down
With some sweeter, cleaner, greener town
And I’ll make my waves while all your new lovers drown
And the train keeps running and the world spins round
But something will be missing it’s true
Oh New York there’s no getting over you
Oh New York there’s no getting over you
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Late afternoons on miracle mile
Let’s take a break from the day for a while
You grab your skateboard, and I’ll do my best
To keep up on my own two feet
Smile at the neighbors, smell all the flowers
Point out the houses much nicer than ours
“We’ll get there someday” you shout back my way
Tracing waves down the street
Yesterday’s troubles can rest in our room
The Ana’s are out and the Anda’s in bloom
Tell mom and papa we’re gonna be fine
Old sunny skies can’t be far down the line
Every day we can greet with a smile is a miracle
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Through the picture window, winter falls
We tiptoe out as adventure calls
Breyer horse collection, dollhouse chairs
Packed now somewhere
Me and my good friend down the road
We thought our parents would grow old together
There it is, memories we bend to fix in boxes
The dogwood days have come to end
Leave the kitchen light on, one more night
We crowd the island like olden times
Through the picture window, life in limbo
Now that it’s only a launching site
Old tennis rackets and winter coats
Tricolored ribbons and birthday notes
I’ve got a feeling this is only the beginning
There it is, memories we bend
To fix in boxes and never find again
The dogwood days have come to end
To end
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Every now and then I miss when you were mine
Something extra lonely ‘bout the evening time
And we had lots of problems, but I only
think about those while the sun shines
I went through deleting your old messages
Call it masochism call it cleanliness, and
I almost forgot how much you
Cared before you stopped
I was kind then I was not
Guess we both got what we got
But I made good on my plans, man
Up in Beachwood Canyon
New years of nineteen I couldn’t help myself
You were getting drunk while I kissed someone else
We changed the rules so many times and both lost sight
Of what was feeling forced and what was feeling right
But I made good on my plans, man
Up in Beachwood Canyon
Some days I imagine you a passer by the
Less I know the better of your present life
And you deserve someone who eats up
All your cheesy dance moves
I know, you know I tried
But I made good on my plans, man
Up in Beachwood Canyon
Up in Beachwood Canyon
Nomadder
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Helpless dawn dream broker
Will you make me memorize
every marking on the wall?
California’s no closer
Wading through the darkness to the hall
Fill my cup in silence as I think his name in bold
We’re restless with ambition and we’re new to being old
I sleep in an unmade bed of questions
Waiting on a sunrise that may never come
Let me lie awake then, write the whole night through
I don’t know what home is when I don’t come home to you
“It kills me too,” he said, it kills me too
Early 20’s is chasing
Bent on moving fast enough,
before the where or why
California’s a daydream
That only pays a call till after midnight
Plans to keep my promise, pack my mother’s compact car,
Help to(us) tiptoe round the edges of remembering how far
I sleep in an unmade bed of questions
Waiting on a sunrise that may never come
Let me lie awake then, write the whole night through
I don’t know what home is when I don’t come home to you
“It kills me too,” he said, it kills me too
. . . .
All these restless nights corrupt my mind with every day
and I can’t help feeling stuck in time behind a thousand miles away
While life keeps moving faster, I guess that’s what we asked for
. . . .
I sleep in an unmade bed of questions
Holding out in hope that I will see the sun
Let me lie awake then, write the whole night through
I can’t hold you close but I can sing this song to you
“It kills me too,” he said,
“It kills me too,” he said,
“It kills me too,” he said,
it kills me too
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I smell like cigarettes I didn’t smoke
California’s funny, it’s a sick joke
You’d love to translate for me, wouldn’t you, huh?
Driving down the coastline in your soft top
If you say divine, one more time, then I’ll lose it
Stop painting me the deity in your pseudo mythology
There’s always less legroom than I remember in economy
At least I hear the music again
Day trip out to Belair, thanks, Apollo
All the clout you can eat just don’t swallow
You won’t abandon this wild hunt will you
My Arms into branches just to shield you
Ooh, say divine, one more time, and I’ll lose it
Stop painting me the deity in your pseudo mythology
There’s always less legroom than I remember in economy
At least I hear the music again
At least I hear the music again
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early twenty something, cooler from afar
i miss standing tiptoe, reaching for the cookie jar
i didn’t have the words then, for searchin’ always searchin’
early twenty something, apathy is sexy
workin on my poker face, I won’t smile till they let me
i’m under meditated, overmedicated
sleeping pills cause sleeping just feels wasteful
and I hate it
take it easy
troubadour's a pipedream, I’m more like a salesman
making shiny things and begging folks to listen
no matter where the work ends, searchin’ always searchin’
early twenty something, I want something diff’rent
places that’ll change me, special friends worth missin’
i’m under meditated, overmedicated
sleeping pills cause sleeping just feels wasteful
and I hate it
take it easy
i think i’m obsessed
with a version of myself
that I still haven’t met
i only see her in passing
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under meditated, overmedicated
sleeping pills cause sleeping just feels wasteful
and I hate it
take it easy
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Softer from a distance the closer in you go. there’s
patience in the driveway and patterns in the road
And upstairs someone’s wond’ring
When their someone’s coming home
As the night takes over and life fades from the sky
With nakes trees of April and warm breeze like july
Mark the page like always, another day goes by
With someone thanking jesus, and someone asking why
I could scrub the surface clean assemble some control
Or take a dive for meaning in the caverns of my soul
Maybe i’ll find madness, maybe i’ll strike gold
Singing pica pica when i go
Hid your flannel sweater in the panel of my couch
Sometimes in my travels a mem’ry gets too loud
Heard it calling to me, feared I might call back
Cause i could say i miss you, but what’s the point in that?
I could scrub the surface clean assemble some control
Or take a dive for meaning in the caverns of my soul
It’s not just that i miss you, i miss when we were whole
Singing pica pica when I go
Pica pica, pica, pica
Pica pica take me home
Went back to the spot we found and called our secret door
It didn’t feel the same this time, the way it did before
(and) you won’t catch the difference in mirrors or my hands
Maybe it’s between the birds and me to understand
I could scrub the surface clean and semble some control
Or take a dive for meaning in the caverns of my soul
And that’s just how i’m feeling, but feelings all i know
Singing pica pica when I go
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Hey baby
What if I asked you to quit?
Would you do it?
Would you do it?
You’re doin a great job
Of doin your day job
You’re working hard babe, that I can see
But, you’re not doin a great job (of) lovin me
Hey baby
I told you more than one time
Now it’s a problem
And this one’s not mine
You’re doin a great job
Of doin your day job
You’re working hard babe, that I can see
But, you’re not doin a great job (of) lovin me
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Just like that our world split in two
I just lost a lifetime with you
Back to all the old ways, the cold days I knew
I just lost a lifetime, I just lost a lifetime with you
Won’t you slow down for me now
Two times, three times round the block
We held on till we had to stop, oh
We held on
Just like that our world split in two
I just lost a lifetime with you
Back to all the old ways, the cold days I knew
I just lost a lifetime, I just lost a lifetime with you
We could take the high road
Plan to keep in touch for all the good it does
Mama, please don’t say it
It doesn’t help to think about how nice he was
There was no right time, but it
Doesn’t mean it wasn’t the right thing to do,
And it’s still so hard to lose
Just like that our world split in two
I just lost a lifetime with you
Back to all the old ways, the cold days I knew
I just lost a lifetime, I just lost a lifetime with you
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Must the sun set emerald green
To see just what your missin
Should the weeping willow sing
For you to stop and listen
I don’t wanna blame you
And I shouldn’t have to tame you
Let me save you the apology
If I’m not for you that’s fine
Must the sleeping peaks erupt
To vie for your attention
Must I go and get dressed up
To dance around the question
No I don’t wanna blame you
And I shouldn’t have to tame you
Though it hurts, the time will help you’ll se
And if I’m not for you that’s fine
. . . .
Will you keep an even keel
When I tell you that I’m leavin’
Are you holdin’ back the things you feel
For some ungodly reason
I have done the best I can
And I won’t spend this lifetime guessin
If that leaves me empty hands
i’ll take the hard-earned lesson
No I don’t wanna blame you
And I’m never gonna change you
Time to wake up from this reverie
If I’m not for you then you’re not for me
And if I’m not for you that’s fine
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When I asked for distance, you said “that makes sense
and anyways it’s about time for a dopamine cleanse”
I laughed through the phone, even though I agreed
You’re the only one i know to put it so rationally
Might as well get to the heart of it
Lonely’s grown roots in this love we’ve built, and
I’ve made a habit of needing you
To need me, before thinking
I could be drowning, and might be
While needing you, to need me
Molly won’t stop talking up some bullshit about twin flames
I don’t have the patience for conspiracies about shared pain
But later on I found it burning in my mind
And that’s not a non starter, but it’s not a good sign
Last night spent in my childhood bedThinking of ways to explain it instead, how
I’ve made a habit of needing you
To need me before thinking
I could be drowning and might be
While needing you, to need me
. . . .
Need me
You won’t leave me, will you?
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It was 3 in the morning
You wanted falafel, I said
“It’s new york city, I bet we could find some”
And down by the station he said he was closin’
But you smiled, n he made one
And I couldn’t blame him
If we’re not gonna make it
I’ll be the first to say it
. . . .
I met your family and it
Raised some questions
I don’t like passing judgement, but it’s
Where you came from
I tried to fake it and
Smile through dinner
But you asked what’s the matter, so I
Had to play dumb
If we’re not gonna make it
I’ll be the first to say it
. . . .Cooking in, spinning out
Weekends wane, Sunday blues
Lie in shame, there’s a name for this
...We won’t use
I don’t wanna be cruel, but it’s true
I was lying when I said I don’t deserve you
I’m just so sick of trying to
. . . .
It’s coming,
do something
If we’re not gonna make it
Don’t act like we can take it
If we’re not gonna make it
I’ll be the first to say it
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Baby let’s pick up and move to Portland
Pack your mom’s red truck with all your junk and head
Nothin’s keepin’ you here now
We made that pretty clear now
And it feels alright
Sweet creature, thrill seeker
You don’t need to stick around
Nomadder, don’t you feel bad, your just
Gettin’ good at comin’ home to a quiet house
Baby let’s do anything you feel like
Walk it down La Brea in the dark
Who you wanna be now?
It’s only you and me now
And it feels alright
Yeah it feels alright
Sweet creature, thrill seeker
You don’t need to stick around
Nomadder, don’t you feel bad, your just
Gettin’ good at comin’ home to a quiet house
. . . .
Somewhere in August in someone’s backyard
You made it promise to stop trying so hard
Sweet creature, thrill seeker
You don’t need to stick around
Nomadder, don’t you feel bad, your just
Gettin’ good at comin’ home to a quiet house